| | I decided to write a note to god.
Why? Lately I've been losing hope, and my train of thought. I don't know what's wrong with me. But i decided i should turn to him in my time of need.<3
Dear god, why have my life always been so hard. My father, my friends, my family & my life. No one sees inside of this wall i put up. I hope you forgive me, I have disobeyed you. I've turned my back on you. And gotten lost in this cold, harsh world. I can't forget my past. And I've lately been loosing hope and has been in a negative train of thought. I've been not wanting to do anything. The love of my life for a moment came back & I found no joy in it. I'm sorry for cursing but I'm tired of the bull shit. Happiness is so hard to find rite now. But tho i do wish to pro sue it. Why God, choose to make my life so complex....I'll never know unless I'm a live. To see what will happen next. God, I need you to give things that I cannot find in my life. I do not believe in love and I do not think that's either of our fault. Love has been having a big impact in my life. You showed me amazing people who did loved me & you let me learn from it. But love has made me feel loneliness & richer (greater). Skipping love, why must those you've have created judge me? Don't they know only my lord and savior can judge me and my doings. Help me, help my family find our way. I wish, hate would go away, i wished that people who talk trash just go away. I know you know that most of the time i wish i could disappear. You've made my life feel blessed and you've made me discover things I never knew i would love.
Thank you. And Jesus name I pray Amen.
Give us the strength to make it through. Help us find love cause love is over due. And it looks like we haven't got a clue. Need some help from you. Grant us the faith to carry on. Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone. Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong. On this road we're on.
-jojo.
Ugh i just wish i can fall asleep and wake up and everything be okay<3
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| | Posted 12/21/2007 1:50 PM - 5 Views - 6 eProps - 3 comments
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